new moon and other ponderings...

I saw New Moon a Friday at midnight and loved it. Now, some of you might send me scorn and disbelief with your thoughts, and some might give me a pat on the back. But I liked it. And I want to see it again. I have no shame in saying that! It just seems that everyone has such strong opinions on this whole franchise it's ridiculous. The books were a fun read. The movies are progressively getting better. And that's what I think! But I have read comments that people have left on the movie and they are pretty intense and hateful or over the top in love with this. I don't get it, why such the argument? People get pretty fired up it seems! Well, my stance is I like this series and and the movies. And I will continue to. So judge me as you may!

In other news, life has been great. Last weekend Dave and I, for the first time in 21 months, had two night sans a child. We went away to Ludington, Michigan, a cute little beach town up north. We stayed a the Candelight Inn, a bed and breakfast right in downtown. It was so nice to get away, and not have to worry about much of anything. We even watched three whole movies in the weekend! I don't know the last time that has happened! It was by this pretty sweet state park as well, so we went on some hikes, which is so good for the soul. This Californian girl definitely misses her mountains!

James is of course, growing quite handsomely. He's speaking alot, and making a lot of sentences. One of my favorite is , "Oh No! Yellow lid fall ground!" when of course, he dropped the yellow lid to his marker. So fun. He's currently loving trains, and more specifically, Thomas the Train Engine. Me, I can take or leave that character. Not so with James. We mostly have to take one or all of his trains in the car with us whenever we go somewhere. He's starting to make little friends, and asks about them when they are not around. ("Eba sick! Kiss...." "Dabid go??" translation: "Eva's sick, I should go kiss her!" "Where'd David go? I still want to play with him...) He's just all around great. I feel so blessed to have him. He makes me smile all the time. And though it was nice getting away this past weekend, I felt I wasn't getting away from him, just the responsibilities of him, if that makes sense. (Washing trays, changing diapers, wiping boog).

I am also so excited to have it be Christmas. I really could have my house decorated right now if it weren't for Thanksgiving, though I am anticipating eating a lot of food come Thursday. I got all my Christmas money so I can go Christmas shopping, I want to decorate cookies and I want to see sugar plum fairies in my dream. Oh, to see the world through red and green glasses. Only one more week!

We've also been feeling our baby girl alot, which is so sweet. Last night, Dave and I were watching the Proposal (another good one!) and his hand was on my tummy, and literally, I thought she was trying to find another way out. It was real sweet for Dave though, a good connection for him and his daughter! I forget how many weeks I am, 28? 26? Who knows... (Lauren?? I bet she does...) but I am starting to feel big. Realizing that I have about 12+ weeks to go only makes me feel bigger! We've also been blessed with a lot of clothes for her from different people, which I am so grateful for. About 2 months ago, we only had two little outfits! But now, I think we can survive the first couple months. Thank you all! That's the one downside of having a different sexed (?) baby the next time around, you can't just pass on the same clothes. I won't have my girl wearing a Lightning McQueen shirt, thank you very much. Bring on the ballet slippers!

pink versus blue

And Pink wins!

It's a Girl!

Hooray!

I have already bought some pink clothes and am going shopping tomorrow for material to make a girl-ish diaper bag with my MIL. I am so excited and blessed!

Daybook: September 27

So I stole this idea from my SIL, and I hope she doesn't mind. I guess you just fill it out with your answers, and here mine are:

Outside my window: Fog, darkness, and coolness. Since I just read my SIL's post (different SIL than who I got this idea for the post from) and she was talking about Twilight, i do have to say, it looks like a cloudy, foggy day in Forks. Just saying.

I am listening to: My Friends Tigger and Pooh on the television (with James lounging in front of it with his pillow, blanket, and milk. What a life!), the birds chirping outside along with other animal or perhaps insect noises...and.....that's all. It's nice. It's cold and quite.

I am thinking: That I know don't why James woke up twice last night. He went to be really late last night, and whenever that happens, for some reason it doesn't mean a better, sleep-in night sleep but instead a wake up a lot, early morning type sleep. Rats. Also, I am thinking that today is going to be a good day. We have church (which we haven't been to in forever), taking James to seeing Madagascar 2 for FREE! at a local theater, and who knows what else.

I am thankful: For many things, but most importantly my son and lil' one in my tummy. Oh, and my husband too! I am thankful that it is cold outside.

From the kitchen: Nothing yet. I haven't got to breakfast. I am thinking about making toast and eggs though.

I am wearing: Pink plaid pajama pants, long sleeve shirt and one of Dave's sweatshirts. Come to think of it, the long sleeved shirt is Dave's too. I need to get my own clothes.

I am hoping: That later today I get to take a long nap. And that we can stop by Gull Meadow and get more pumpkin iced donuts. Amen.

I am creating: Another human being. Beat that.

I am praying: That I start praying more. And for some friends and family who all have potentially big things on their minds and hearts.

Around the house: My fall decorations, hurrah! My son, on the couch lazing around and my husband, sleeping in in the bedroom. A bathroom that for some reason due to no fault of the toilet keeps leaking a lot of water. Seriously, every day a puddle of water just appears. So weird.

I am reading: I just finished Twilight (in preparation for the next movie, of course) and need to start reading my book for the book club I am in, a book called Something in the Bayou. I think it was Midnight in the Bayou? Whispers in the Bayou? I can't remember. But I need to start it! And also my Bible study book, which I am behind in.

I am watching: A lot of new shows. Well, maybe only one new show. I am currently watching The Office and Glee, and I am eagerly anticipating the arrival of Ugly Betty, which starts in two weeks. And I just watched "He's Just Not Into You," and cried many times. Just shows what'll do it for me these days.

One of my favorite things: fall.

A few plans for the rest of the week: Teaching school, a play day I think?, Wednesday Wigglers, a football game, Bible Study, wanting to go shopping and get more fall decorations, and put up some new posters I got for my classroom downstairs. Oh! and taking James to the Air Zoo on last time before it is not free anymore.

A picture that I am sharing: James is totally into cars lately. Hot wheels are his definite cup of tea. Jeeps, trucks, fire trucks, police cars, ambulances, you name it. One of his many things that he likes to do with all his cars is line them up and make a "train" with them, like so. He's just so cute.

i really...

- i really want juice. really bad. but dave's gone all day, and i don't have a car to go to the store. rats. i wonder if powerade will do the trick. probably not....

- i really want to see a lot of movies now. i just got the fall movie preview from entertainment weekly and there are a lot that seem good! like of course, new moon, shutter island, and well, it's early, so those are the only two i can think of now...but trust me, there's a lot! and i haven't even finished reading the issue yet!

- i am really glad my son has started sleeping in. he normally wakes up between 7:30 to 8:00, and that is okay with me. much better than the 6:00 time he was sporting earlier. 

- also, i really want my son to stop whining that he has to color upstairs, not downstairs in the basement. i mean, those little crayons just get lost down there! 

- i really have been enjoying organizing lately. maybe because i teach from home and school is starting soon, but i have been wanting every drawer and closet to be organized prior to school starting. and it's been super fun! now, don't scoff at my proclamation for the love of things neat and organized too. i know you readers love it too, whether you will declare it publicly or not! yesterday i did all the kitchen/office drawers and today i am thinking closets. mmhmm. there's nothing better!

- i am really tired. all the time. and it sucks. did i tell you all i am pregnant again? i think i have some mild form of narcalepsy  (how in the world do you spell that??) because i do believe at any given moment i can fall asleep, anywhere. you all just better hope it doesn't happen to me now! oh, but i can't fall asleep/stay asleep at night. that's the beauty of it right there!

- i am really done with summer. so done. bring on the hot chocolate, warm sweaters, cinnamon stick candles and warm winter fires. to me, it hasn't been a very summery summer, so i am just ready to skip it!

- i really like my son's new hair cut. he got it while i was away in california, and it was a sweet surprise to come back too. he looks like such a big boy! and he's acting like it too, talking a lot and being super independent and active. so sweet...

- i also really miss my california friends. it was so nice to see them again, i wish i could see them more! 

- i really don't like that my floor is sticky. and i mopped it. why would it still be sticky?

- i really don't like wearing only an engagement ring. my wedding ring randomly broke last week (literally in half, it just dropped to the ground! why did that happen?) so if you were to look at my left ring finger, i look like just an engaged women with an almost two year old and another on the way. i just miss having the two rings together...

and i think i am really done!

random thoughts

1. i am so tired that i sorta fell asleep while james was watching little einsteins this morning. (though it was pretty sweet- we both laid on the couch together while he was sipping on his milk. it was very cuddly). 

2. still no luck finding a job. 

3. i am lovin' McDonald's new Frappes. so cheap too!

4. i am currently obsessed with friends again, but watching the show backwards. i finished season ten and have moved on to season nine. i am almost done, and wondering how i can get my hands on season eight when my SIL is three hours away. 

5. i love open house season. with my husband as a  high school track coach, we get invited to many seniors open houses. that mean lots good food and my grocery budget has definitely felt the benefit as we have eaten probabaly three meals at home in the last week. 

6. my husband gave me flowers. amen!

7. my son is very into the "tah!" (trash) and throwing things away. and after you have given him something to throw away and he does put it in the trash, he asks for more. he has even been known to rip out the pages of his mickey mouse coloring book just so he can throw something away. 

8. he has also been pretty interested in the potty. (my son, that is. not my husband). he will ask many times to go sit on the potty. so we take of his diaper and let him sit there, and flush when he is "done." who knows what this means, but it's sorta cute!

9. dave and i rescued an American flag last night. on the way to one of the open houses i previously talked about, we were driving behind a semi truck through the light in Richland. now, leading up to the light on every telephone pole is an American flag that the city puts up every summer. i don't think the truck could have done this if it tried, but as it was driving past on particular flag, the flag got caught in one of the hinges of the truck and got ripped of the pole. luckily, it was a red light so i asked dave if i should go get the flag. he said to go hurry, so i did! so i got out of the car and when up to the truck and pulled and pulled trying to get thatn grand ol' flag unstuck, but it wouldn't budge. so i went up to the guys window and shouted "there is an American flag stuck on your car!" (with my arms waving wildly and polinting at the side of his truck) well, his window was closed so apparently he couldn't hear me since he was pointing at his ears and giving me what was apparently the "what? i can't hear you!?!?" sign. so i stupidly yelled louder. in hindsight, i hope no one i knew saw this, because i was making a fool out of myself. so then he rolled down he window and i finally conveyed my message. then, in the middle of the lane AND a green light he stops he truck and gets out to look at the situation. (why didn't he turn the corner and go into a parking lot to fix the problem, i don't know). well he yanks and pulls and tries to open and close the door, but to no avail. so i tell him to go park by the library. well, long story short (are you all still reading??) we follow him into the parking lot and dave parks next to him, hops on our car, and gets the American flag down. what a true American hero. now, we have a American flag that belongs to the City of Richland in the back of my car, waiting to return it to them today. and trust me, i am not making this up! and for some reason the video of it wouldn't transfer from my phone, but he is a picture of dave holding the glorious rescued flag!

10. dave and i are going out on a date tonight! any ideas for a good movie to see now?

11. i'm coming out to california in august! so excited! more details to follow...

that's it!

my beloved show

so i'm sad. i really love jon and kate plus eight and even met kate a few weeks ago at a book signing. but having watched the season five premire last night, i'm sad that i went and supported her book tour, when i sorta wish she would just stay home with her kids. 

the saddest parts to me where:

1. when alexis said to her dad at her birthday party "daddy i don't want you to leave again!" (oh my goodness! soo heartbreaking!)

2. and when kate was talking about going on book tours and such and she said the other day when she was calling home that one child called her the babysitters name instead. i mean, if that isn't a red flag, i don't know what is. 

3. that they can't work this out, it seems. they seemed before to be such a strong family based on good values of God, love and family. it seems completely different now, doesn't it? and i don't want to pass blame or judge, but it's so hard. 

4. and how could the kids not know what's going on? kids on way more perceptive than given credit for, and honestly, you could cut the tension between jon and kate with a knife. 

i really just think kate should come home. 

on the other hand, though, i love watching the show. i've watched it since the beginning and have been faithful ever since. maybe time has run it's course? those kids are just so stinkin' cute though, right? (aiden is my favorite...)

my heart goes out for them, and it just makes me so sad...it shouldn't end this way, right? 

what do you think?

blech...i think i've given up blogging....

the letter "d"

okay, so there is a lot of stuff swirling around in my head now, thoughts that are so big and so vague right now that i don't know how to pin them down. big things about who i am and such, and it's been bogging me down lately. that said, i don't want to talk about it. it's been a heavy thing so instead...i thought i do a fun post to distract myself. and here ya'll get the lucky inspiration from my ex-roommate (but still holds a dear place in my heart) lisa. she "tagged" me, or what have you to do this post. she assigned me the letter d and i think i am supposed to write a list of my ten favorite things starting with that letter. so here we go! (in no particular order...)

1. davey. most obvious, right? (maybe that's why she gave me that letter!)

2. december. its the snow and the trees and lights and decorations and also my birthday. what can be better?

3. dancing. i love ballet and really grooving to any good song. beyonce always gets my to my feet!

4. dinnertime. and really any mealtime because i love food. (in-n-out shout out!)

5. dessert. also related to number four. its embarrasing how much sugar i can actually consume.

6. doodling. secretly, i am proud of my doodles. and i don't know when it's too old to be doodling in the church bulletin, but i do it every week. i can't help myself.

7. dates. i love goin' out with my hubby. though it's almost be three years of wedded bliss (how corny!) he stills finds ways to romance me. and seeing as these happen less often lately, i really treasure them.

8. daring adventures. okay, i know that my "d" is the adjective, but i had to fit this one in. i like taking in new experiences, like camping or being in a city alone or moving across the country. i feel my heart is always at the ready to take on new exciting things.

9. downtime. the older i get the more i can honestly say that i love being at home. (does this contradict number 8?) i love a clean house, the aroma of candles and a good book. that is my perfect ideal night.

10. drumlines. okay this is random one, but growing up watching the rose parade gave me a love of marching bands. and probably because my lame school didn't have one, i always love watching the bands best. and the drums. did any one else see "drumline" with nick cannon? a classic i am sure, but i loved it.


and there you have it! now let's tag some peeps too...

i'll give ashley an "a"
karly a "d"
corie a "j"
rebecca a "r"
and ruth a "j"

go at it!

and once again, i have a genius husband

because once again, he fixed our mac.

how he does it, i don't know.

all i know that at 9 pm this evening our computer was about in 100 million teeny tiny pieces almost making me dizzy.

and at 12 pm, i have once again entered the blog world from my very own computer.

what a man. ("what a man what a man what a mighty good man...")


sorry, it's late.

if harry really could be my friend....

and i could live in narnia while attending hogwarts school of witchcraft and wizardry and my boyfriend was a vampire. i think that might just be my perfect life. or something like that. :)

lately, i've been super into reading books. and not only reading them, but wanting to live and experience them. this past winter when reading the "harry potter" series i really wanted to go to london and board the hogwarts express for myself. i wanted to be friends with ron and herminone and go on all sorts of adventures. i wanted to help harry beat voldermort (excuse me "he who must not be named"), well, maybe just watch him beat voldemort. and i wanted to somehow have a wand of my own.

i read "the devil wears prada" and secretly wished i was single woman who got carted around in town cars and wondered which jimmy choos she should wear today. and wished that i could go to paris during fashion week.

and now i am reading "the chronicles of narnia" series and have gotten quite involved with those too. i have visions of seeing narnia for the first time when aslan was creating it. i wish that when i went into my closet it would lead into a snowy wood (or maybe a tropical paradise, but if we are talking about magical closets here, i won't get picky).

this past week i also watched "twlight" and had a sudden urge to meet a vampire. (a nice one though, who was a supposed "vegetarian" and wouldn't want to eat me). what's the deal? i guess these people must be really good writers, because they sure do take me to other worlds!

but all that aside, i do like my little world too. my world of naptimes, mickey mouse, smears of peanut butter and smelly diapers (well, not that one.) so though all those fantasies seem fun, i do sorta like my own reality.

our com-pu-ter is broke

again!

so i can't post often and can't check emails! and don't get me started on facebook!

my lil' reader

among some of his favorite things to do like, climb, play with various balls (basketball, football, etc.), eat peas, play with trucks, is reading. it might be in the top three, i am not sure. but he loves to take books off the shelf and settle in a good book. most times, he'll bring you a book and then sit in your lap as you read. and he has his favorite books, of course. most have to do with having a ball on one of the pages, and he'll gladly let you know which pages those are. yet there are even times that he loves to read so much, he'll do it on his own in his own little reading corner, as the pictures show:



he's really into this one:


hello!


i hope this love for books continue on as he grows up. and just to let ya'll know, these pictures were not staged!

my baby is one

well, today is officially a year and one day old. how times flies is surely the case. i love my dear little boy so much that i am mourning the end of his first year but excitedly anticipating what is in store this next year. never has one little boy caused me so much joy and had me experience so much love. never has one little boy caused me so many sleepless nights and times of frustration. yet, at the end of the day i love him and am so proud to be his mama.

his birthday was full of happiness and fun. we had a little party of which involved ballons (balls!), babies eating cake, a beautiful slideshow of pictures from his first year (shoutout to jason my brother-in-law for making it. thank you!!), food, a "how well do you know james?" quiz (to which mimi won, congrats!), and of course, presents. thanks to all our family and friends who came out. you made his day special! here are some pictures from the day. i didn't take much on my camera, so ya'll have to wait until i get pictures from other people, then i'll post more. but here's what i got:

"balloons!" this is right when he first woke up and discovered that there were balloons and streamers on the ceiling. oh baby delight!


cake!


"haha! i'm eating cake!"


playing with my cousin Lily

nake time! here james and baby david are getting ready to go play in the cake


baby cakes! they didn't really like playing in the cake as much as we thought they would...

nothing like a nake on his birthday! here is james, me, corie, lily, and tessa in the basement


that's all for now! when i get more, i'll put 'em up! thanks everyone for blessing my son and family!

jon and kate plus 8

for those of your who enjoy the gosselins as much as i do, you'll be happy to find out that right now on iTunes one of the free shows of the week is a new episode of "Jon and Kate Plus 8." just go to iTunes and scroll down to the bottom of the page where is says "Free on iTunes." along with other free songs and music videos, you'll find an episode of jak+8. i haven't watched it yet, i just had to let everyone know! good luck!

oh, having a son

here is just an average day in the life of james:

morning: get stuck in the barstool

lunchtime: grilled cheese

afternoon: "place" all dad's shirts on the floor

pre-bath: play nake in the papasan with balloons

bedtime: cool spikey hair

it's really all in a day's work.

so i might not blog ever again...

because i have cable t.v.! eee! i mean, with tlc alone i could easily spend my whole day on the couch. and that is not including e! true hollywood stories, cmt, or lifetime. then there is usa with re-runs of law and order and my basic nbc which i love. what more could a girl want? i even have pbs for my son so he is not left out of the loop. and of course, dave has espn and all its affiliates. you might not hear from the hockers' again. 

it's a weird feeling though, because i have not had cable/satelite television in the place i have lived since i was in high school at my parents house. i almost have the feeling that you get when you are at a hotel and you have cable and can stay inside all day and just watch t.v.. 

speaking of t.v., i have had this idea for a long time to list off my t.v.'s shows that i regularly watch or follow or just love to watch. i know it might not interest ya'll, but i am interested to see just how many shows i love and how much time i do waste. so here we go (in no particular order):

- the office: a steady classic. i had my fears at the beginning of the season as some of it's witty office humor had left and instead traded for a bit too much storyline, but i feel it has since returned to it's more original premise. i especially loved the super bowl episode. but when are jim and pam going to get married?

-ugly betty: my branch off to abc. i absolutely love this show. i really can't put into words but it's fastly becoming my favorite. i just rented all of season one and am watching season three on thursday nights (when it airs) but have yet to find season two on dvd to rent. nonetheless, its a fun look at high end fashion and reminds me  a bit of "the devil wear prada."

-american idol: a fan favorite every year. i really liked brooke. 

- jon and kate plus 8: i love their relationship, think their kids are adorable, love that they are Christians and love to watch all their adventures. i just wonder how i can meet them?

- what not to wear: i mean, who doesn't love stacy and clinton?

- my name is earl:  a new favorite of dave's and mine. we recently rented season one from blockbuster and just can't get enough. what/where is jason lee from before this? he looks familiar. and i just love joy. ahhh, you just can't get enough redneck humor and karma. 

- rachael ray: i pretty much always have to tune in at two to see what dinner she is making that day. i don't always make it, but it airs during james naptime, so i also enjoy watching it alone. :)

okay, i guess my list isn't too bad, i thought i was way more hooked into shows than i thought. but these are just the current ones that i love. there are always the reruns/other shows i might watch if there is nothing on and i'm bored shows. those include:

  simpsons, seinfeld, friends, supernanny, wifeswap, pretty much anything on tlc (minus all those tattoo and truck shows), law and order, house, and that new shows lies* or something (it's on fox, pretty interesting), and biggest loser. 

are any of yours on my list? what's on yours? i am guessing LOST because it seems that everyone and there mom watches that show, except for me. and dave. (i did watch one episode at my sil's house and was thoroughly confused throughout the entire show. what the heck? what is this island attacking people?) 

so let me know! 

finally grown up

well, sorta...because tommorrow the cable guy is coming to our house somewheres between the time of 10 am to 12 pm. i do hope he shows up because that means we are finally getting internet and cable! woot woot! and don't think we are too snobby or anything, when i say "cable" i basically mean basic television with a few extra channels. but hey at least i can throw out the dumb rabbit ears and finally not have to deal with bad reception. and also, we can get good internet through out the whole entire house! (not just our bedroom where sometimes we pick up a signal... :) ) i am totally excited. i just hope i hear the guy when he comes because i'll be downstairs in the basement with the girls, since he is coming during schooltime. hopefully, all my post-its that will be on the door ("knock loudly, downstairs!") well help his visit be a success. i'll let you know tomorrow if i am typing on our internet or not... 

wish us luck! (he will come between 10 and 12, right???)

my to do list

1. go grocery shopping. - check!
and i even stayed under budget too! thanks most in part to aldi, my favorite grocery store to get great deals. i got a bad og tortilla chips for 99 cents! can't beat that.

2. go grocery shopping for the super bowl party. - check!
and don't worry, it's not this huge blowout of a party. we are just having some friends come over, and they all have babies. so past some young ones bedtimes, we won't be very loud if arizona gets a touchdown. at least we have enough chips to go around! :) i am also rooting for the cardinals, if anyone wants to know. my reasons are a: the live the closet to my home state of california and b: i have been to their stadium before. pretty sports savvy reasoning if you ask me!

3. get stuff for james party.
this is not checked because i am not going until next week to get all his stuff. i am so excited that he is turning one! he's such a big boy now, and he becomes greater every day. the theme of the party will be balls seeing as that's his favorite thing to play with. (like basketballs, baseballs, tennis balls, etc. get your mind out of the gutter! :)) so i am going to make a basket ball cake and we are going to have meatballs and grapes to eat, among other things. the rest of the party though, i can't mention because it's pretty great. but i'm not going to build it up or anything because i don't want it to be a huge letdown for the people that do come in case our plans aren't that great. but i am excited nonetheless.

4. have a three day weekend. -check!
well, it's this coming week but since it is the end of the semester for my girls, we are getting friday off. who's excited???

that's about it i think...i do have cleaning and such to do to prepare for the party, but i can do that sporatically throughout the week. i think.

whatcha doing this week?

photos

here's some recent pictures of james

i'll put others up later!

on the upswing?

hello my lovely blog world, it's been a while!

okay, so i know i've been a bit of a putz when it comes to actively blogging. and i apologize. i've recently been in this personal slump and that has left me devoid (is that a word?) of any inspiration to post or put up pictures. and further more, my mother in law has most of our christmas pictures on her camera, so that's another excuse not to blog, seeing as i have no exciting pictures. lately, i've been sorta down, if i can be so honest. and this is my blog, so i will. it's been a lonely time for me lately, and when you feel like one thing is wrong in your life, it is much easier to point out others, isn't it? well, i have been feeling lonely, gained 5 pounds over the holiday, have some weird rash disease on my chin (slight exaggeration, but still, what the heck is it?), and yeah, feeling generally blah. in the mood where you want to wear swear pants all day every day and only put jeans on for church. (but insist that church should have a "pajama day"). and thankfully for my husband, he's put up with me and all my moodiness, tears, and grumpiness. he's let me stay in jammies, listen to me complain about the same thing over and over again, and just be plain ugly. thankfully he's also been encoraging to me when i've need to to, and lately, it's been working. i've decided that i don't want to be in that slump no' mo' and i'm trying to get out of it. (i was also inspired by taylor swift's song "fearless"- i'm telling you, i think that 18 year old and i could be good friends). so one step of getting myself back on track is blogging. so here we go. 

so do many of you have close girlfriends? or, for that matter, a close girlfriend? like in "bride wars" (fun movie if you have the chance to see it) they go running together, talk on the phone together, go shopping together, borrow sugar from each other, and the whole nine yards. you know friends like that? where you can call your friend up about something completely random and not need to have a whole conversation to catch up with each other? or know that if you have to go to the mall this weekend, you'll take her, because, i mean, who else would you go with? well, i don't know if it's only in movies, but i've been feeling an intense need for that. a close girlfriend. and i know i just moved to this area and it takes time...but i'm not the kind of girl that can survive that long on her own. so if a friend like this exists, let me know. or if you have one, you'd better hand her over to me!

so that's what's been on my heart lately. maybe tonight i'll post pictures of the hocker family christmas and other things. 

oh- and james' birthday is rapidly approaching. one year! holy smokes. i'll keep you posted with the plans.